Today has been a bitter, yet sweet day for me. Lots of “happy” and lots of “tears“.
I went to visit my Mother’s grave after church today and took her some flowers. I talked to her for a few minutes; I told her I knew this was actually a better Mother’s Day than she had ever had on earth. But, somehow, knowing that doesn’t make up for all the tears I’ve shed this week-end. My head knows the truth, but my heart still has a huge hole in it. The only thing that makes her death a LITTLE TINY BIT easier to deal with than my father’s is that because of her Alzheimer’s, she kept leaving us a little more each day for a few years. My thought when I put the flowers on her gravesite was, ‘even though Mama didn’t understand a whole lot of things the last few weeks she was alive, she DID love flowers and the beauty of them’. So I gave her the best thing I could; beautiful flowers in shades of orange; roses and alstromeria. Happy Mother's Day, Mama; I love and miss you...
On the happy side, I saw all my children and grandchildren this week-end. I received lots of nice cards, beautiful gifts and a nice meal at one of my favorite places: La Senorita. Most importantly, I felt loved -- really loved. I got LOTS of HUGS - I can never get too many of them~!
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